i sometimes hate it that i can have feelings. why? why must God give us this ability to feel? i am now so confused. i just dunno wat to do. wat should i do? i just wan time to stop and let me have more time to think so as to make the right decisions before i regret them.
i cannot make good choices. but yet, u still force me to make them. the outcome, good or bad, i dunno but when things go wrong, i get the blame. i appear as the head in charge and all the blame is on me. if things go the way they should be or even better, u get the credit while i am just someone there to assist u. why?
i dun get it. wat have i done? i feel like the fourth person in the team. i dun belong. i really dun. when u go with me and leave your clique for just one recess, they look at me in disgust as if i have done wrong. as if i have taken their best friend away from them. u gossip and whisper behind my back. u may not notice but all these things really hurt. deep down, i feel like i am less than nothing and have no right to be in this world. please forgive me but i have nothing to deserve this torment.
disgusted. unwanted. shunned. avoided. that's how all of u treat me. all of u are the same! i am only just human u noe. why? am i just too different?
i cannot make good choices. but yet, u still force me to make them. the outcome, good or bad, i dunno but when things go wrong, i get the blame. i appear as the head in charge and all the blame is on me. if things go the way they should be or even better, u get the credit while i am just someone there to assist u. why?
i dun get it. wat have i done? i feel like the fourth person in the team. i dun belong. i really dun. when u go with me and leave your clique for just one recess, they look at me in disgust as if i have done wrong. as if i have taken their best friend away from them. u gossip and whisper behind my back. u may not notice but all these things really hurt. deep down, i feel like i am less than nothing and have no right to be in this world. please forgive me but i have nothing to deserve this torment.
disgusted. unwanted. shunned. avoided. that's how all of u treat me. all of u are the same! i am only just human u noe. why? am i just too different?
Labels: Emo-ing again
