my world is falling apart. i am losing hope and have been to hell to suffer something that was never meant to be mine. the world is going into the state of chaos. i thought she was my friend, or not, at least not my enemy. she backstabbed me, hurt me and i mean literally and emotionally. wat kind of person is that? she took everything i had and wats left of me, making me a person tat is like only an 'extra' and tat my life totally is crap!
i hate myself. why can't i just say 'no'?! i hate who i am, the personality, and everything tat i am. why am i so easily bullied until that person used tat advantage and used it against me today? i will no longer be bullied, i will no longer be friendly and wan to make new friends, i will curl back in my shell and slowly, my heart will turn back to stone. nothing can affect me now and make me despair. nothing! this time, she wins. but next time, i will never ever wan to see her in my group again. never! she is a total asshole and so is another so-called friend of mine. they are both ppl who take credit for other's people work. this will not happen again. i will never be affected. i am emotionless, neither happy, neither sad. i can never ever have feelings again, she took them away from me. i am a total failure and beyond hope. tomorrow will be another day where i will be bullied, unwillingly. so will be the next and the next and the next. she made me cry, in my heart and literally. darkness
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pathetic and hopeless - Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 8:56 PM
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pathetic and hopeless - Monday, July 14, 2008 @ 8:56 PM
my world is falling apart. i am losing hope and have been to hell to suffer something that was never meant to be mine. the world is going into the state of chaos. i thought she was my friend, or not, at least not my enemy. she backstabbed me, hurt me and i mean literally and emotionally. wat kind of person is that? she took everything i had and wats left of me, making me a person tat is like only an 'extra' and tat my life totally is crap!
i hate myself. why can't i just say 'no'?! i hate who i am, the personality, and everything tat i am. why am i so easily bullied until that person used tat advantage and used it against me today? i will no longer be bullied, i will no longer be friendly and wan to make new friends, i will curl back in my shell and slowly, my heart will turn back to stone. nothing can affect me now and make me despair. nothing! this time, she wins. but next time, i will never ever wan to see her in my group again. never! she is a total asshole and so is another so-called friend of mine. they are both ppl who take credit for other's people work. this will not happen again. i will never be affected. i am emotionless, neither happy, neither sad. i can never ever have feelings again, she took them away from me. i am a total failure and beyond hope. tomorrow will be another day where i will be bullied, unwillingly. so will be the next and the next and the next. she made me cry, in my heart and literally. darkness friends. nothing but lies. |
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