Today was the day when my grandma moved out of her house as she really wasn't in good health so she moved to my uncle's house. Then her little apartment was rented out but the renter didn't want the furniture so instead some were thrown away and the rest moved to be placed in my house of my uncle's house. For us, we got the fridge as ours is a little too small (more food! Yay!) and the plasma tv, and the old tv cabinet and a computer chair. Its really great and stuff but as the new furniture are moved, our old furni has to go somewhere so where did it go? It went to somewhere in my room where we kept my guzheng?!?!? THE GUZHENG IS NOW KEPT IN ITS CASE IN THE STOREROOM!!!! Its like wth! My parents have no right to do tat la, without my permission cause its my room and stuff but its their house right? Haiz...feeling sad and depressed suddenly, and looking back at the spot where my guzheng used to be, i just feel so empty and instead of a guzheng, its the old tv that we used to have and the remote...
God help me! I dunno wats wrong with me but suddenly feel so empty like tat. Its like life is just moving on so fast and there's no way of stopping so as to view the scenery that is always around u. Everything is out of your control and just spinning wildly around u. I don't belong in this world, in st.nics, in 1truth, in co sometimes, in life. I just feel like tat. I noe i still belong in st. anthonys primary forever but our friends are falling apart. Different schools, different friends, different life. I always wondered if my mum made the right choice by making me go to st.nics, if i had chose the right path, if i was going to enjoy this life and everything tat is going around me. Time is just going on so fast tat u dunno when and how to stop it. Watever that is left in me is emptiness and darkness. [sigh] I wish i could just be hit by a car when i go out and just die. I dun wan school to start so soon as i will be having insufficient sleep again, stress, and everything i have been trying to avoid from the very start of this year. I admit i am not perfect is, no one is, but still, 1truth, sorry to say this but i hate u. That is it, i finally said it, i hate 1truth 08 and wish it never existed. I feel rejected and isolated, havin' mood swings this whole holiday, and shunning nearly everyone. Thats it that i wan to say and if u guys (ppl from 1truth) hate me, no hard feelings, just that if i keep everything to my self, i will just [i dunno] explode or something. All i want to do now is just curl up in a ball and just start crying until there is nothing left to cry abt.
Labels: Emo-ing again, June holidays
