joanne here! again! cause its my blog so obviously! my life has shattered into a million pieces and my worries and frustrations are just building up and up. there is nothing to stop it, helplessly watching. i start to cry and go off into a world of my own, in my safe place, where there is only me, i and myself. i start to distant from other people around me, feeling this helpless feeling tat is unexplainable. i wish all these things never happen and that i was never born. i would stay with the lord jesus christ and stay with him with all eternity. things tat were good happened, but the bad things outweigh them by a jillion. i joined suona, made many great seniors and friends, tat i am proud of. i was allocated to 1truth, the stress, the enthusiasm, the teachers, all i regret. regreted tat many things happened and tat i am standing alone in the storm, with nothing but the help of old friends who may have already forgotten me.

at home, i am suffering alone. my parents have much already to worry. i must not further stress them out for everytime, i am home. they will start screaming and nagging abt things that i have no idea abt. they get easily irritated, annoyed and screams at anyone who defies them. i am scared, afraid, for every move i make, they will find fault. again, standing alone in this cruel storm.

in class, the teachers r stressing me out with all the assignments and tests. classmates and friends are mostly ignoring me or hanging out in their little cliques. i am again left alone to my devices and find some seniors to playwith during recess. i dread recess and school. my seniors have their own friends and they are hanging out with them. i cannot keep finding them every single day. they have a life of their own, excluding me in the picture. once again, i find that only me stand alone in this terrible storm.

during co, i find comfort and warmth. but they dun last everylong. after a while, andrea and angela will go off. the gao1 suo3 will have a great time together. i will be with shiyi and yixuan, who mostly have fun together, with me just trailing behind them and going wherever they go. haiz. i can never say my true feelings as its something personal, yet something wanting to burst out.

i am alone in this storm and everone around me is just... _________ ...

this are my true feelings. never am i able to express. i feel hurt today when ___________________________________ and that the distance between us have yet furthered. this will never be undone and always, i will keep this memory forvever. thanks for all this heart breaks tat i will never forget in my life.

Labels: Emo-ing again

JOANNE LIEW :D Want to know my full name? Use your super stalking skills.
Nothing much to know about me actually, just that i love chocolates. Especially KITKAT :D
I can be two very different people, even three or four at different places. But no need to freak out.
The end.
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