taken from amanda han's blog:
It's unbelievable, the way just listening to a song can cause your stomach to tie itself into knots and teardrops to prick at the back of your eyelashes; or how brainstorming ideas for the CAP portfolio can suddenly cause past memories to rise up like a tide.
There's so many things I want you to know, but I can't- because you can't listen. And that's what kills me. Sometimes I wonder what it'd be like if you were still there, if I could have the chance to atone for my mistakes. If I could do things all over again. You loved with all your heart even when the illness was eating the very last threads of your memory and consciousness away. The sand in your hourglass was running out, and by the time I realised what I'd done it was too late.
Five months have passed.
I was five months too late.
putting that aside-
i think wat amanda said was something that i feel the same way abt somebody. however, i was more than five months late. i was more of 14 months late.