i totally flunked my geog and maths paper. so i am going to be doomed.

the time is inching closer
i am walking towards my doom
what should i do
will there be anyone to help me

i dun wan to go on anymore
i wish that things would happen differently
what is wrong with my life
why can't things go the way i wish it would go

i had fallen into an endless pit
will there be anyone to reach out and catch me before i fall
how would i noe
nobody cares

sister and mother are annoying me
my dad sometimes ignores me and being unreasonable
what is wrong with my life
i will be the same ever again

the old joanne is gone and never coming back
the new me will come and take the place
the new, cry-baby me.

72nd post

heys everyone. this is like the exam period and yet i am blogging. wierd.
anyways, the teachers today were so naggy, ms/mrs chan, the principal, keep talking on and on.
however, she did not shut up after i am galring at her.
I AM TOO NICE TO GO AND SHOUT, "SHUT UP!"
and nobody is even listening to her.
this is because i am TOO NICE
resulting in me having a LEG CRAMP from standing too long.

during pe, we were playing base ball and i was hit in the hip bone thanks to rachel's bat. painful...
LYDIA LAU LI EN!!!!!!!!!!!!!
if u r reading this, u are so dead 2morrow or any day that u will be appearing in school.
why u leave me alone today, and let me do the bridge, all MYSELF.
d&t was a total failure as my bridge sucked as it will not hold on to a very strong load.
but mr. tay say tat we can do other bridge again and maybe find an afternoon to do again.
and mr tay fetched me and jia xin to amk hub as it was raining heavily.
thanks mr. tay!

drama and science exam on thursday!!!!! chinese on friday. going to die. so saying goodbye and hope to see u in my next life.

1.The person who tagged you is?

LIYING AND BOYU

2.Your relationship with him/her?girlfriend?

good friends and senior:D

3.Your 5 impressions of them.

they are bloody hell smart, neat, sometimes too uptight[no offense], hardworking and adorable

4.The most memorable thing he/she had done for you.

err...remembered my birthday and gave me a present [liying] and helped me with my studies [boyu] =)

5.The most memorable thing they had said to u?

cant rmr every single word [no offense]

7.If he/she becomes your lover, thing he/she has to improve on will be?

NEVER GOING TO HAPPEN!

8.If they become your enemy, you will?

try to make up and be friends again.

9. (Repeat Question)

10.What is it you want to tell for them now

I LOVE YOU GUYS!

11.Your overall impression of them is?

kind-hearted but often misunderstood [liying] and bloody smart [boyu]

12.How do u think ppl around you will feel around you?

maybe think tat i am mad and should go to a mental hospital or thinks that i am emo and depressed.

13.The characters you love of yourself are?

None...

14.On the contrary,the characters you hate yourself are probably

everything...

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?

err.... no idea

16.For people that care and likes you, say something to them.

THANKS, I LOVE YOU! <3



17.Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you

1.liying

2.andrea

3.yixuan

4.yik yan

5.peggy

6.priscilla PANG

7. xing ern

8. shiyi

9. ru hui

10. zhang chen



18. Who is no. 6 having relationship with?
NO ONE, I TINK.

19. Is no. 9 a male or female?
female

20. If no. 7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
err...no...they dont even noe each other!

21. What is no. 2 studying about?
probably everything she needs to know for eoys

22. What was the last time you had a chat with no. 3?
today!

23. What kind of music band does no. 8 like?
dunno! sorry.

24. Does no. 1 have any siblings?
little bro????

25. Will you woo no. 3?
err...no...I AM NOT A LES!

26. How about 7?
SHE IS A GOOD FRIEND!!

27. Is no. 4 single?
yes.

28. What is the surname of no. 5?
Ching.

29. What is a hobby of no. 10?
playing with her toy cras

30. Does no. 5 and 9 get along well?
YES!

31. Where is no. 2 studying at?
isnt it obvious? st.nicks lor. MY AWESOME SENIOR LEH!

32. Talk about something for no. 1
huh? dun get question.

33. Have you tried developing feelings for no. 8?
sisterly love!

34. Where does no. 9 live?
Simei there in this cool HDB flat. been there a million times

35. What colour does no. 4 like?
no idea. soory.

36. Are no. 1 and 5 best friends?
they never knew each other existed. how to be friends or even good friends?!

37. Does no. 1 have any pets?
dunno. sorry.

38. Is no. 7 the sexiest person in the world?
haha, she is HOT!

39.What is no. 10 doing now?
study like mad for tomorrow's history. like wat I should be doing now.

END

studying for history tomorrow. wish me luck!

70th post!

joanne is here to post another post.
did u noe that i am a retarded person, who was retarding and still a retard.
so many useful words.
u noe my mum says that blogging is not safe but i dont see why.
i dont put my personal particulars online, and so far no stranger is knocking on my door or smsing me or sending my emails. but she just cares abt me so i will be extra careful.
today, ms chan, my lit teacher scolded me for not returning 1Purity's OHP. to 1Purity, i am so sorry! bad memory. then ms chan make mo go apologise(which was fine with me) and make me return it to them myself(i am also fine with that)
But that ms chan say that "i forgot to return" is no excuse. u noe i am only a human being and that i can only store 7 things in my brain.
THINGS THAT I REMEMBERED AT THAT TIME:
1. history notes
2. some wierd malay word which i hve forgotten by now
3. maths hw must be done
4. going home must buy bread
5. science things
6. lyrics of songs that just cannot get out of my head
7. dates of remaining tests

thus, all my memory space is filled up.
ok, have to rest my poor eyes.
over and out!

and my tuition teacher's blog: http://www.ticklemehysterickle.blogspot.com
yik yan, i have given u the address so i have one less thing to remember.

joanne here.
being sian during music class and bored to death even though we have work to do but not in a mood to do anything. tats me, no sense of piority.
anywys, i have finished studying chapter 5 last night. so today, aiming to finish chapter 6 and 7 today. if posible, do chapter 8.
yesterday was a total night disaster. my dad was coming home grumpy. and then, when i went to get my history notes from my shelf, HE had his stuff on top so i went to get it, i fell on the floor.then cause the shelf is like near the door so when the things fell, given my dad's personality, i have to pick them up IMMEDIATELY. so when i squatted down, i started to pick them up. then, HE appeared to go out so as to dry the laundry. cause he put the clothes in the big pail so i ask him to put down the pail and wait as he has a swollen ankle so like tat not so heavy and easier for him. BUT HE SAID THAT: " WHY SHOULD IWAIT FOR U?! WHO DO U THINK U ARE?!" then, i tried to reason with him as he would be like say i leave the things there purposely so he could trip and his ankle will be worse. [tried it] Then he freaking hell slapped me?!
ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
make me so mad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but no choice. he is my dad. ok, i need to send stuff liao.
later!

helllos! i just found out that my tuition teacher has a blog and not only has it polluted my mind, it has also showed me the other bitchy side of her. ok, and she loves to use the word, "fuck!". tat is wierd but i tink i got used to it.
also, there is history end-of-year review test and i havent started studying yet!!!!!! ah. i better start soon. MUST!! anyways, today was nothing special except good luck to all sec3s who have their exams starting today. 2 girls came to my class and borrowed blouses. i was the KIND SOUL out of everybody in the class [jkjk] and windy to lend them. and mine smelled smelly. cause the girl i lend her was from track and she had just finished running dunno how many rounds but its ok. i did something great!
i was totally insane and having mood swings. TODAY and YESTERDAY. must be pms-ing.
later!

joanne here. obviously. jing yi says that my blog is not fun to read as it is always so emo. anws, i am changing to a new blogskin so just hang in there.

and i cannot help being emo and depressed. there is so much things to be sad abt. first of all, my grades which are terrible. next, my cca that just cannot get any worse. thirdly, friendships. fourth, i dun want to go to a trip to china, beijing, especially when its between my senior's birthday. fifth, the upcoming tests. sixth, the thing tat keeps bothering me, should i stay in st.nicholas?

i have all these things to worry la. so how not to be depressed...

i totally flunked my geog. i am so sure i did. crap. and there is english on thursday and *gasp* e.lit on friday. time to stress out! i dun tink i am out of my psle-is-over mood! how?

anyways, i dun tink i can bring myself to go to HER lesson. the idea is taunting. until like next year, april? i am so nervous. wat else can i do, still? unless transfer school but it is not an option. anws, got class tee back today! and mine was "the suona, zhongsuo lover"...
my seniors, u may tink i am lame but i am expressing my thoughts so its the truth!

got to go study but i just cannot bring myself to do so. haiz.

this totally stinks
i am so dead and i tink life just cannot get any worse
why must that person be ME?
why can't it be someone else
i am just so freaking mad
SHE is not as bad as she was before
but SHE still has tat attitude tat scares me off
i have a phobia of HER
i cried before i can even have a lesson with her
good thing i was sick today, or else i would totally flunk my chem test
I AM NEVER GOING TO SMILE

i am now over my birthday mood.
and totally stressed out.
there is chem test this friday and i havent finished or even started studying yet.

End Of Year Review Tests
geog test this morning and man, i don't want to talk abt it.
followed by english test which i dont even care.
followed by literature test, which to my horror, found out that u cannot bring ur book in the exam. FREAK OUT!!! U HAVE TO LIKE MEMORISE THE WHOLE BOOK!!! WTF!! I DUN EVEN NOE HOW TO DO TAT IMPOSSIBLE TASK!!!

I DUN EVEN NOE WAT OTHER SUBJECTS ARE NEXT. CRAP.

i better start. bye bye.

thanks for the gifts everyone! twilight was given to me by yik yan and rachel. the cute stuff bear was given by liying, my adorable senior. the card given by my super active senior, jasmine. and the plant thing was given by merapi orange. and the extremely adorable eyore was given to me by my awesome senior, andrea!
LOVE U GUYS FOREVER AND EVER!

today was the best birthday i ever had. as they remember my birthday! and received lots of love!! thanks to those who wished me as its the thought that counts! i was playing in suona today! huo lao shi did not wan me! YAY! best thing tat ever happened. sadly, no seniors there so not so fun but was not disturbed by huo huo! so considered quite good liao.

going to study liao. good night.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE BIRTHDAY GAL, JOANNE, ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOANNE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

joanne has arrived and havent posted for like, i dunno, 5 days.
but i am back from crapping.
posting pictures next time.

Ironic.
I always thought things were always so complicated and hard to solve.
But today.
Things changed to simple and easy to understand.
I dun get it.
What is going on in my mind?
When i was pulled back into reality, things become complicated again.
And this time I cannot even differentiate reality from fantasy.
What is wrong with me?

P.S. keeping a diary!

heys everyone. random today.

anws, now i am so bloody hell confused. MY PARENTS CARE ABT ME?! i dun believe but after today and yesterday, i am in doubt. this holiday is supposed to be a period of thinking for me abt school work and now, home problems?! thinking...

JOANNE

JOANNE LIEW :D Want to know my full name? Use your super stalking skills.
Nothing much to know about me actually, just that i love chocolates. Especially KITKAT :D
I can be two very different people, even three or four at different places. But no need to freak out.
The end.
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