HELLO EVERYONE!
GOT BAPTISED TODAY!
REJOICE! LORD IS MY ONE AND ONLY SAVIOUR!

MINE WAS SPECIAL! WITH MY FRIENDS!
AT THE EAST COAST PARK BEACH LEH!
WOO!
WITH JOEY, MEGAN(MY SISTER), JUDITIH, JACOB, DEBRA, FANG YI AND SO ON WHO I DUNNO. OH, AND LI SHA ALSO WHO IS ALSO MY DA JIE.

sadly, no pictures as my mum didn't come(even though she wanted to - will not further elaborate why), my dad doesn't care but at least the church did take some photos.
so fun! and the questions they asked were : "will u accept the lord as ur one and only saviour?"
reply, "yes"
question: "will u always believe in him and never doubt him?"
reply, "yes"
question, "are u willing to commit ur life and sins to the lord?"
reply, "yes"
and then, PANG! they put in the water and up again u are.
as we were in the sea, i could taste the water as of course, the water touches ur lips and salty!
after that, we were congratulated by every1 there.
and then, back into the sea. we were all having fun!
splashing water.
thus, swallowed lots of seawater.
thanks to juditih (3 times), james (2 times), justin (lots), fang yi and debra (2 times together), and lisha also got splash me lots of times.
fish u but i also got take revenge.
went home shortly before taking a short nap at home.

woke up thanks to a call.
my dad has sprained his ankle when alighting a bus.
went to get my dad and waited for my uncle as he has a car and easier transport.
went to chinese doctor.
dad had acupunture and had a cast on leg
had to wait for him and mmy grandmother came limping along.
grandma - nagging abt almost anything and everything.
so came home at last, after 2 hours, starving as last ate at like breakfast.
and my dad is also another person hobbling here and there.
and now, i smell like chinese medicine! EWWWWWWWWWWWW...........

elaborate more 2morrow.
bye bye.


AND MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 8 DAYS!!! REJOICE!!!

heys, people who are reading my blog who i tink is none. but nvm.

ANYWAYS, THINGS THAT I AM EXCITED ABT:
1) I AM GETTING BAPTIZED TOMORROW, EVERYONE SO YAY!
2) TOMORROW THERE IS NO TUITION
3) MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 9 OR 8 DAYS

AND I WILL BE RETURNING HOME AS A BATIZED CHRISTIAN. SOMEBODY PLEASE TAKE PHOTO OR VIDEO OF ME GETTING BAPTIZED!!!! TO THOSE WHO ARE COMING. WHO ARE NONE. SO I WILL ASK MY PARENTS. WRONG, FATHER. MY MOTHER IS AGAINST THE WHOLE " BAPTIZING" THING. ITS LIKE SHE GIVE IN CAUSE I WAS TOTALLY DEPRESSED AFTER SHE SAID "NO". SO SHE GIVE IN BUT STILL DUN WAN TO COME. SO NEVER MIND THEN.

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happy endings are so over-rated. sorry, lydia. but i tink happy endings are a little too dumb and life doesn't work out tat way. life is a very unfair and depressing matter and hardly, will things happen the way u wish and then..happy ever after. so GET USED TO IT! even though i am still in the process of doing so.

heys, feeling emo.
so i will write something cheem.

Quoted from phoebe's blog:

Have you realised,
that one can smile, laugh and joke around.
But actually hurt so much inside.
the pain is so deep,
you just want to scream out loud.
just wanna tear your heart out.
Have you realised,
that once you cry,
those that stare in awkardness are those who don't understand and don't want to understand.
those that comfort you are trying to understand but just don't get it.
those that look at you, come to you, and give you a warm hug,
are those that want to understand you,
want to comfort you,and DO understand you.
are those that love you, those that need not words,
but just eye contact,to dig into your heart,
to get you to pour your heart out,no need for words.
no need for emotions, no need for worries.
just one deep look into each other's eyes.
FRIENDS.
A magical term,A blissful word,yet in the turn of the eye,can actually turn into monsters.
those that leave you behind, those that won't stand by you.
basically, those that don't care.
and get angry, and threaten you with your friendship.
however,immunity is what saves us from this.
once you get used to it,you have learnt something new.
you have grown stronger.
WHAT DOES NOT KILL YOU MAKES YOU STRONGER.
When a friend ignores you.Just remember.
WHAT DOES NOT KILL YOU STRENGTHENS YOU.
just walk up to them and ask.
just ask.SPEAK UP.
but.that's what I've been unable to do.
I dare.or do I?
I am my true self.yet, obviously not.
life.
contradicts each and everyday you spend.
life.
is what makes you endure this pain.
YET life.
is what gives you challenges, friends, loved ones and ones that love.
love you for you.love you for who you are, and not for what you are.
a princess has no freedom.
a princess has no true happiness.
your friends cant treat you like a princess.
your family cant treat you like a princess.
you will be bore of your freedom
isolated from your happiness.


this is life.
LIFE.
Live.Laugh.LoveInspire.Imagine.Individual
Vantage point.Vast.VigilantEnjoy.Ebullient.Ecstatic
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I loved wat phoebe wrote here as i feel the same way. but i am going to ask. no matter how hard it is. but all i need is just a chance. so huizhen, could u give a chance?
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going to study. i noe it sounds wierd but i have this sudden urge to do my hw. so ta-ta.

why aren't u still not talking to me?! its been for like 10 months and still, u ignore me? wat did i even do wrong? u could tell me, u noe. just like me know the reason and i will stop pestering u. we used to hit off so well. i really cherish our friendship and hope u can forgive me and start over.

ok, i am like damn pissed la. argh. marianne could not fetch me to st. anthony so i ended up taking a taxi there. wat the hell. never mind la. next, when i went back, no one was there and those who went after talking mrs ho split up and went to places in cliques.
kai rong, dawn, carmen, sarah sim, megan, jing hui, pamelyn, xing ern - went to simei
most of raffles girls people and phoebe and dunno who else - went to tampines
good thing peggy told me she was going to the library first so i just went to find her before finding xing ern tat group in simei.
i think tat it was a total failure as u guys are still in cliques! no point. so disappointed. and so damn tired. after all tat time of wasted walking and my e-link card no money liao. crap.

again, i am feeling left out in everything and thus, dun feel like talking.

maybe posting later. bye bye.

GUESS WHAT?

I VOMITTED IN THE BUS ON THE WAY HOME!!!! ITS WAS SO DISGUSTING! MY WHOLE PINAFORE HAD IT! AND SO WAS MY HANDS AND ARMS! EWWWWW..........

ANYWAYS, REMEMBER, MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING SOON!
09/09!
SO BUY YOUR PRESENTS!
...
NEVER MIND LA, JUST WISH HAPPY BIRTHDAY CAN LIAO!

funny. u noe how sometimes when u feel angry at that person and wish that person would get his retribution. then, when he does, u feel so sorry for him and hope to help him/her. i get that feeling leh. i thought that she was never a good sister but when she gets scolded or beaten cause of some wierd reason, i will feel sorry for her and help her. so wierd.

anyways, dun tink will be posting any pictures today.

i dunno why but i suddenly feel so extra and not needed. like left out tat kind of feeling and also being like just there for no reason. its like now, i go guzheng and the suona people who are remaining will go out. and i miss out on a lot of things that everyone keeps talking abt. argh. never mind ba, maybe i was not supposed to know. cannot write so much in case i offend ppl so signing off and may post another.

a little unclear but these ppl are admiring the singing by our classmates.

heys, third post liao. anyways, went to some old folks home tat house the aged who are *ahem* unwanted. so it was quite ok la. but i got some pictures. so enjoy!

more tomorrow.

some random day at the beach!

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joanne is here so as to bring humour and laughter to this world. ya, right. as if. but i am posting this in a really happy and joyful mood so dun spoil it.

PEOPLE REMEMBER:
MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 09/09 SO GET READY YOUR PRESENTS

next post is later in 10 mins. ^^P

hello. i just knew that there is hypocrite around me. as least that wats ppl tell me. but never mind la, its ok.

BIG RELIEF!
FINALLY!
I FOUND MY PURSE! thought i lost it. turned out to be with ms. praveena.

THANKS TO YIK YAN, DENISE AND RACHEL!

that's all.

heys people, i not so depressed liao and much happier but also more exhausted. abt the previous post, someone has finally opened my heart and again taught me that people can still be trusted. i am sorry for that post and for hurting anyone's feelings. although i noe tat the scar of it will still be there but i will try my best to make it all for u.

please forgive me as i had many bad experiences. so ya, maybe u day it is a lame excuse for my crappy behaviour but i was PMS-ing and well, i cannot control it. sorry once again and hope we all still can be friends again. goodbye now and have fun watching the olympics closing ceremony. have a nice night.

u are right. things did not go my way. but i have learnt to accept things the way they are. God has opened up my mind that whatever that has happened, it is my destiny and i should make the best of it. from young, i have been taught to never trust ANYONE in my life. for once, i never listened to that advice. i was naive and thought that people were kind and trustworthy. however, something had proved me wrong. and an incident in my primary school had made me into someone who hardly let down my guard. it had to be over a period of time before i had trusted tat person, a little by little. now, in secondary school, again i had placed my trust in the wrong person, so now i retreat. back to my shell.

i now only hope to do my best in guzheng and talk to the suona ppl who are playing guan and other instruments through sms-ing and such. however, i will never be the same joanne since primary school or the girl u first met in suona as both of them have disappeared and will never come back. only the joanne who has made her heart cold and hard is left.

unbelieveable. i had just finished the previous post. posting really past time so quickly. should post more, or write more. today's post is now about....today!

LASTEST NEWS:
1) have to hand up chinese, art and d&t file on monday. lots of filing.
2) i totally flunked my chinese spelling. damn.
3) I HAVE GONE TO GUZHENG! CONFIRMED! CRAP LA!

tat's abt it. posting later. and many enters pressed. so blank all the way.

-i actually wrote this post on paper as well, i had nothing to do so might as well plan my next post la. so this is actually wat i wanted to post yesterday but, well, had not time so now i well have 2 posts today. this is 46th post. quite an achievement. i feel like so dama proud la. ok, enough crapping and lets get down to serious business.

21st August 2008:
somehow worst day of my sec1 life
had to go guzheng as i was selected to go as too many guan ppl and i have experience.
freaking hell
suffered with lao huo
on the bright side,
at least there is xin ru teaching me and joyce as my learning parnter

OH WELL, SO MUCH WITH HAPPY ENDINGS which are over-rated

below, is the many enters that i have pressed as i am very bored and idiotic and retarded. so below is of course blank!

wat i wrote here has been erased.

so now i am in the library after school and during lunch break. watever u call it. and qianyi, u finally updated it!!!!! haha, shall not talk now cause i also reading ppl's post la. and also ppl's blog!

heys, i just noticed that nowadays, i am like damn exhausted like nobody's business. dunno why la. so just take things the way they are. anyways, there is hardly anyone i can confide in. cause i tink they will laugh at me and such. i also just realised tat i am damn pathetic la. like seriously. enough of this wierdness. as seriously, dead tired.

may just stop here as hungry and yet, cannot find anything to eat that isn't cold.

also have an ulcer or cold sore, whatever u call it. it looks damn sick la. even andrea says tat. she was like, "where did u find the courage to come to school?!" when she saw my lip. she was like damn shocked. hurts like shit but no choice. just have to live with it, i guess. at least it cuts down on my consumption of food. so save money and also can cut down on my fats (at my thighs)


LAST STATEMENT:
- SO AM I STINKING HELL IN GUZHENG OR WAT?! FREAKING IDIOT MORON LIU BING ASK ME GO TRY TO PLAY THEN ASK ME TO GO BACK IN TO THE SUONA ROOM AGAIN!
- SUONA ROCKS FOREVER! AND ZHONG SUO IS THE LOVE~



SPREAD THE LOVE AROUND, PPL! SO PLEASE, TAG!

boo! today was like shit. ok, at least in the morning. i was like freaking bloody late! second time this term and third time this year, SO FAR! provided i won't be late again. mr tay was having his cme lesson and i was like reading this book, "Percy Jackson and the Battle of the Labyrinth". damn nice la, its abt greek gods and such. will not spoil the book for u. read it! highly recommended but start from the beginning. the book i am reading is book 4 liao. and mr tay thinks tat "shit" is a bad word. i say it like all the time.

the rest of school was ok but i was suffering massive headache. now also and just walked in the rain. damn nice la. enjoyed it so much la. nothing much left to say except my grades suck.

AND OH YA! i have a confession!
I LOVE ZHONG SUO FOREVER AND EVER!
AND THE SENIORS THERE ARE LIKE DAMN NICE!
WE ROCK!!!

being lame again!

in co, should i be happy or sad? i am now in guzheng, not xiao. is tat good news? i dun noe and now, i am confused and dun feel like thinking about it anymore.

no longer able to differentiate the feelings that are controling me.

this is like a really fast post as i have to do lots of things. have to remember for drama tomorrow. try to study for the essay i am writing tomorrow during english and i think i noe the topics already. anyhow assume la. then, i still have to touch up for the mini-task, chemistry. later, have to study for history. CANNOT WASTE ANYMORE TIME LA!!!

ARGH.............................................................................................................................................................

tomorrow have co! yay! i noe i am a little crazy but tats me. anyways, i study freakology, chi2-dun4-logy, crapelogy, randomlogy and now looking for more courses to join. will inform u if i take up any new subject.

i am like so dead! lost my water bottle!!! i tink i left it in the computer lab ba. go to school 2morrow find. ok, i need to do my things now. bye bye.

decided to have another post today.

quote of the day:
"hopeless, depressed, pathetic, thats who i am"

man, tomorrow is going to stink and i think i am having a flu too after walking in the rain.

joanne is back and posting! and i am now very crappy and emo-ing. i have decided to have a daily quote!

and today's quote is:
"life sucks and so do i"

its like i suck at everything! ppl beat me nearly at everything la. i dun have enough breath so as to blow the guan3 properly. my grades suck. and my personality is so pathetic. how can i like myself? argh. i hate myself. but ppl somehow have a way with me. like zhang chen! she knows how to make me laugh! yik yan also. souna ppl also. its like when i am alone at home like now, i feel so depressed and dun feel like doing anything other than sulk in my corner. damn it la.

all i can say is that today was tiring! and i got back my maths test paper and OMG! i got a B3. FOR MATHS!!! its like my best subject la. although mr. lin's lesson are like so damn boring and u can just like fall asleep! but still, he teaches stuff that is useful but we have no energy to hear him already. today for chinese was the xi1 you2 ji4 thing and i think i sucked but its over! and then, have to stay back to do chem project. the worst was geog! the teacher suddenly change and start becoming so... err.... like.... more strict and fierce la. before was english which was quite ok and then it was maths AGAIN! so sian....

BAD NEWS: HAVING 4 PERIODS OF ENGLISH WITH SADDISTIC MISS CHEONG! ON THURSDAY!

had lunch with shiyi and then, went for co. yixuan had geog make-up lesson and i dunno abt liying so dun ask me. u noe my instru have to use this mouthpiece, right? then later, my one already... how u say... broke or tear or watever u call it. hard to get low dots but high notes damn easy to get. i ask lao shi can change a not and he said ok but i owe him $20 cause he say i change too many times. then, the new one damn easy to get low notes but the high notes damn hard to get. argh. so furious but i will train hard so as to not let my seniors down!

going to study for malay test 2morrow and do chinese hw. bye bye.

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thank the lord that this week is going to be over. curse the time that another week is approaching. time for me is limited.

things i have to finish by this weekend:
- art homework
- chemistry project (both)
- geog information to be typed in
- study for malay test and spelling

my dad is just so unfair. its like he is always siding my elder sister just because she is down syndrome! he always picks on me and my younger sister and then, for my elder sister, he does nothing! like lets say, i drop a fork on the floor, he will shout: " WHO DROP WHAT?!" and then when i said i dropped a fork on the floor and he will then start cursing dunno wat crap and then for my elder sister, he will suddenly be so quiet.
ARGH.......

Labels: Emo-ing again

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zlHdjjHNEC8

this is really a great song! hope u guys enjoy it! its about ur relationship with your father and tat.... , u will find out when u watch it!

the lyrics:

cats in the cradle

A child arrived just the other day,
came to the world in the usual way,
But there were planes to catch
and bills to pay, he learned to walk while I was away
He was talking before I knew it and as he grew
he said I'm going to be like you Dad,
you know I'm going to be like you.

Chorus :
And the cat's in the cradle,
and the silver spoon, Little Boy Blue,
and the Man in the Moon,
When you coming home son, I don't know when
We'll get together then, you know we'll have a good time then.

My son turned 10 just the other day,
Said thanks for the ball now c'mon let's play
Will you teach me to throw, I said not today,
I've got a lot to do, he said that's ok
And he walked away and he smiled and he said
You know I'm going to be like you, Dad,
you know I'm going to be like you.

Chorus.

He came from college just the other day,
so much like a man I just had to say,
I'm proud of you, won't you sit for a while
He shook his head and said with a smile,
What I'm feeling like, Dad, is to borrow the car keys
See you later can I have them please.

Chorus.
I've long since retired and my son's moved away
I called him up just the other day I'd like to see you, if you don't mind
He said I'd love to Dad, if I could find the time
You see my new job's a hassle and the kids have the flu
But it's sure nice talking you Dad, it's been real nice talking to you.
And as I hung up the phone it occured to me
He'd grown up just like me,
my boy was just like me.

Chorus twice.

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JOANNE LIEW :D Want to know my full name? Use your super stalking skills.
Nothing much to know about me actually, just that i love chocolates. Especially KITKAT :D
I can be two very different people, even three or four at different places. But no need to freak out.
The end.
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