the blog has just taken a short nap before waking up...

lots of things to say but do not feel like talking now. say it 2morrow then. but most likely on friday cause there will be no time 2morrow

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heys people out there! this will be another random post. by me! haha, now its malay danca time~ but i not dancing! yay! lol and this is yik yan's computer! haha, i like her com, man. later is history...dunno whether is good or bad. and then freaking english. lastly, is assembly! wah. so busy and yet i 2morrow have geog test. and zhang chen, can u stop reading my post aloud? and she replies with a 'ok!' so funny and now denise is also here! yay! the more the merrier. 15 mins left for recess lor. and then must again revise geog or i will regret it.

messages from ppl who stayed in class during recess today.

hello. kit wei here. that HYENA aka yik yan. that horrible girl who loves my hips so much. bleh:

hello!!! JENNY HERE!!! ----

Joanne is a retard--mERAPI oRANGE
Kit wei back here again. I love this laptop.

haha, yik yan the hyena just poked me and joanne again. bleh:/ she is a sicko. lolz. this post is super dooper confusing.

joanne back. u just heard from many ppl who r in class now and merapi orange aka zhang chen wans to say something now.

Joanne is Dead sadly
Joanne will stop harrassing you all for now
and i kill her MUAHAHAHAHAHA :)
sry i am super lame
bear with me
Joanne suck to the heellllll

tats all for now, later i post after co if got time hor and thanks nicolette for all the encouragement and for squashing them if they bully me.

P.S. yik yan looks VERY VERY VERY SPICY HOT in her malay costume, ppl!

today is a random day! so i am going to talk about some random crap. so my blog won't be all that depressing and blah blah blah. today my hand hurts like shit la. let me start saying from the start. this morning, i woke up at 5.30am. i brushed my teeth and wash my face and...... so much crap tat is so not needed. anyways, first lesson was chinese! and pan1 lao3 shi1 didn't come. yay! but then still have to do comprehension tat she give us and i dunno how to do so guess wat? i just anyhow do. after that, there was some time left so i studied geog! haha, but now i really have to start studying extra hard and fast cause not much time left. then, it was boring mats which reminds me. i still have hw to do. damn. it was then music. dunno wat to comment about it.

RECESS. spent it with priscilla but saw yixuan and shiyi (studying geog).

soon, science aka best subject ever! other than the test next week. and we did experiment. which was about removing sand from copper(II)sulfur mixture to get purely copper(II)sulfur liquid so as to turn it into crystals. so sad that we had to wait 1 week for it to turn to crystals and we cannot bring them home! and then was malay. slack lesson!!! studying geog too and also lit passage-based, looking through the ones i have done before.

soon, it was lit. everyone freaked out!!! it was like 2 questions in like 40 minutes. before that was 1 question 30 mins la! but still got to finish it but wrote instant crap. going to fail for sure. now worried for geog test and graded assignment (must do during english class a essay outline) on friday. wish me luck ppl! and please tag!

joanne has arrived! and i am extremely exhausted la. so tired. anws, today was an interesting day. i mean really interesting as in chemistry class rawks! haha, i love to see the chemicals mix together. anws, during co, yixuan, shiyi, liying, qianyi and yik yan turned out to be quite siao la. its like they wrote on the board: "joanne loves teddy tay and lao pan and lin wen wei" wat kind of rubbish is tat la. so wrong... and then, they took my phone and looked through the pictures and saw this boy and claimed tat he was my BOYFRIEND! so...err...impossible la. crazy ppl. and then, yik yan was like holding me down while qianyi dunno go and zoom in on the photo. then later, yik yan ask qianyi to hold me down and u noe wat she do?? she slams down on me!!!!! going to die liao. she so damn heavy la. and my poor butt and arm and ribcage got hurt. ouch.

i now going to study geog liao and this is not a depressing post so my blog won't be so depressing.

suona rawks forever! and happy birthday, jasmine! hope u like my present! haha, ok. on saturday hor, i went to walk the singapore river with vivian, LB and ann. its was damn fun la and there was this message carved on the floor : " love you, ann" and ann was gloating about it for dunno how long. and there was no ice-cream! so sad. and my legs were so pain after walking. and then, i went on a church outing to walk the anderson wave. MORE WALKING! so tat was my eventful saturday, which i took it as NAPFA training for next year.

this whole entire week is going to be so hectic as got tests everyday! and 2morrow have chinese compo test! and i was only told... TODAY!!!! wat the f****** hell!!!! and then, wednesday, there is literature passage-based. on thursday, unseen spelling, and finally geog on friday during common test period. and then, after school on friday, there is an N6 cluster dance until like 5.30. waste of my time la, i tink! the dance only like 10 mins leh, then got some lame carnival which i dunno wat will happen. must likely going to mug geog and spelling 2morrow during co. haiz... sad me. cannot talk liao, need to mug for tests liao. bye byee.

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exhausted. tired. worried. scared. insecure. wierd. funny feeling.

jojo is here and reporting for posting. today was a busy day. tell u guys about it 2morrow. no time and energy left to type out. post abt it 2morrow, ok? with the post for 2morrow if i have any things and i havent done any work yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

homework due on monday: literature passage-based, d&t mind-map and english compo ( in first person's view)

tests:
wednesday: literature passage-based - 30 mins and 2 questions
thursday: unseen spelling - from dunno lots of sources
friday: geography - chapter 10 and i havent study yet... going to fail

tuition hw:
- 4 compos

things tat need to be done:
- clean my cupboard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tats all for today, good night! =)

joanne here! today's a very wierd and yet funny day for me. and i noticed tat i like to post at night! i had a horrible start today as i did horribly at my chinese test. not enough time la! i like chiong the last page of i will lose like 18 marks. which i maybe will cause i just write some crap in there and time's up! so devastated la, hate chinese test so much. then, we had english. which was totally shit and no help at all! plus, it was damn boring and there is hw to do! anws, it was science next and i was made into a more confused state after she explained the periodic table. i dun even noe wat the period group is for?! and i still need to tell ms yee tat i have no digital camera. haiz... there is somemore a project tat is graded and i am like over-stressed la. 4th week only leh. and i just realised tat i have a geog test on the next tuesday! freaking out time!!!!! and also have lit test next week wednesday!!!!! again freak out!!!!!!!

damn it la, so busy next week cause lots of tests and projects due. wat the f***ing hell la! and plus, i am having mood swings again in class... dun noe why? mebbe just a little stressed out. anws, there is something wrong with me. when in class, i just wan to drop and die but during co, its starts to get fun even though no one really cares abt me. and i just...daydream, i guess. but still, i feel much better and i tink suona in sngs co have this really wierd effect on me. its like all the worries have just flown away and only come back when i have to go home where my dad starts to shout abt some things tat i will not further elaborate. haha, so wierd but i still feel at peace during co.

CO RAWKS FOREVER!!!! AND SUONA JUST RAWKS EVEN MORE!!!!! ALTHOUGH ZHONG1 SUO3 IS THE BEST!!!!!!!!! ( ESPECIALLY THE SENIORS - with the exception of yixuan's attitude and her foul words and her lame actions)

speechless and dying and fading, so soon yet not too late.

joanne here! again! cause its my blog so obviously! my life has shattered into a million pieces and my worries and frustrations are just building up and up. there is nothing to stop it, helplessly watching. i start to cry and go off into a world of my own, in my safe place, where there is only me, i and myself. i start to distant from other people around me, feeling this helpless feeling tat is unexplainable. i wish all these things never happen and that i was never born. i would stay with the lord jesus christ and stay with him with all eternity. things tat were good happened, but the bad things outweigh them by a jillion. i joined suona, made many great seniors and friends, tat i am proud of. i was allocated to 1truth, the stress, the enthusiasm, the teachers, all i regret. regreted tat many things happened and tat i am standing alone in the storm, with nothing but the help of old friends who may have already forgotten me.

at home, i am suffering alone. my parents have much already to worry. i must not further stress them out for everytime, i am home. they will start screaming and nagging abt things that i have no idea abt. they get easily irritated, annoyed and screams at anyone who defies them. i am scared, afraid, for every move i make, they will find fault. again, standing alone in this cruel storm.

in class, the teachers r stressing me out with all the assignments and tests. classmates and friends are mostly ignoring me or hanging out in their little cliques. i am again left alone to my devices and find some seniors to playwith during recess. i dread recess and school. my seniors have their own friends and they are hanging out with them. i cannot keep finding them every single day. they have a life of their own, excluding me in the picture. once again, i find that only me stand alone in this terrible storm.

during co, i find comfort and warmth. but they dun last everylong. after a while, andrea and angela will go off. the gao1 suo3 will have a great time together. i will be with shiyi and yixuan, who mostly have fun together, with me just trailing behind them and going wherever they go. haiz. i can never say my true feelings as its something personal, yet something wanting to burst out.

i am alone in this storm and everone around me is just... _________ ...

this are my true feelings. never am i able to express. i feel hurt today when ___________________________________ and that the distance between us have yet furthered. this will never be undone and always, i will keep this memory forvever. thanks for all this heart breaks tat i will never forget in my life.

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my world is falling apart. i am losing hope and have been to hell to suffer something that was never meant to be mine. the world is going into the state of chaos. i thought she was my friend, or not, at least not my enemy. she backstabbed me, hurt me and i mean literally and emotionally. wat kind of person is that? she took everything i had and wats left of me, making me a person tat is like only an 'extra' and tat my life totally is crap!

i hate myself. why can't i just say 'no'?! i hate who i am, the personality, and everything tat i am. why am i so easily bullied until that person used tat advantage and used it against me today? i will no longer be bullied, i will no longer be friendly and wan to make new friends, i will curl back in my shell and slowly, my heart will turn back to stone. nothing can affect me now and make me despair. nothing! this time, she wins. but next time, i will never ever wan to see her in my group again. never! she is a total asshole and so is another so-called friend of mine. they are both ppl who take credit for other's people work. this will not happen again. i will never be affected. i am emotionless, neither happy, neither sad. i can never ever have feelings again, she took them away from me. i am a total failure and beyond hope. tomorrow will be another day where i will be bullied, unwillingly. so will be the next and the next and the next. she made me cry, in my heart and literally. darkness

friends. nothing but lies.

joanne here! again! the, its my blog. anyways, i tink i did ok for the summary though, even though i just like squeezed in like 90 words. i have a maths test 2morrow and i tink i am going to fail it. have lit, art, geog, history hw and guess wat, i havent touched them yet. sad la. also havent study for maths test.

just had co on thursday and guess wat? i like made a total fool of myself! but at least it made ppl laugh la. stupid conductor liu bing, made suona each person do a solo and then first it was gao1 suo3, then zhong1 suo3. so like andrea did extremely well, followed by yixuan and shiyi and i was like the worst la. its was supposed to be tu -tu-ku but due to a little stage fright i had and the bad experience i had in primary 3, i tink. i was like tu~tu~.... i like too nervous liao... so many ppl staring at me la... and first time played myself alone leh. but then everyone laughed la, so it served as a purpose so tat ppl can have a good laugh la. must be god's purpose.

on wednesday, on the way home with friend, lots of bees on the floor. all kinds, died ones, alive ones, squashed ones and so on and so forth. so scary la, we were screaming all the way down and mr. lin wen wei was like behind us la. knew our lit teacher who was taking over ms chan and she sucks la, worse than ms. chan wei ming who still sucks but not that bad.

off to get my specs... and i look so nerdy. sad.... my life sucks...

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joanne here! wat a boring entrance line right? haiz... dun care la... no mood to think about any stupid entrance line... anyways, its tuesday and a day after youth day! today was like... average... except the fact that i was like emo during lessons all the way until co! andrea today didn't come! =( but never mind la... angela also didn't come for co today... sad man. anws, i didn't fail physics! =DDDDDDDDDD so damn happy la! but then, during maths, i changed place with rachel so she could sit with yik yan. its like i sat with LB for the rest of the day! its not tat i dont like sitting her ( no offense LB) but its because, like wats the point if i am going to keep moving everyday. i wan to ask mr. tay if can change place a not..
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today was denise birthday! haha, big celebration for her. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BIRTHDAY GAL!
then, during co, i lost my phone pouch! yixuan was using then dunno wat happen then lost! i was like so anxious la... but nicolette found it! IN A FLOWER POT!!! so wierd la, how in the world did it end up there? no idea but thank the lord that i found it.

its kind of freaky, but when i was on the way home, i was like feeling so hopeless and depressed. i dunno why la. so... err...

i dun belong in this school. i dun think tat i have a place in this space. i miss all my p6 classmates very much and of course, all my teachers and friends in SACPS! =DDDD visiting u on 19 august.


missing co on 19 august. have fun, u guys!

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joanne here... this post is going to be all small letters! save me the trouble of pressing shift. i am again moody and depressed for like no reason at all... maybe i am but i dun tink u wan to noe. u see, i have very depressing news that i regret for making it happen. I HAVE TO WEAR SPECTACLES!!!! bloody hell la, its like wats wrong with me... besides, i was aiming to have perfect eye-sight through-out my life la... i guess that dream is smashed into a million pieces. i noe i am a very moody and wierd person but i cannot help it.... adding on to my point, 1truth is just so, i dunno, too enthusiastic for me... i prefer a more dead class like my p6 class... tat was fun as my grades improved instead...

dear denise fell off the swing 2day as the swing just came off and she flew dunno why and her wrist got dislocated... another injury and a very sad sad day... wat else could go wrong? lets pray for her and hope she recovers. her birthday is on youth day so lets make it a most memorable for her! curse the swing and hope someone takes responsibility of wat happened. i am never taking a swing ever again... unless i feel it is safe la.

u cannot turn time and wat is the past is the past. no point fussing over spilled milk and worrying about it. look into the present and hope for a future tat is too ur liking. but most importantly, enjoy ur present as u can never get it back again and thus its a 'present'.

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JOANNE LIEW :D Want to know my full name? Use your super stalking skills.
Nothing much to know about me actually, just that i love chocolates. Especially KITKAT :D
I can be two very different people, even three or four at different places. But no need to freak out.
The end.
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